Confessions of a co-dependent

So as most of you know, Jen is headed to America for 2 months. And I wont be going with her. This will be the longest I’ve been by myself for longer than I can remember!
This is a huge challenge for me because not only am I a suffering co-dependent, but I’m also completely afraid to be alone at night and scared of the dark. Yes- I’m 31 years old and for 31 years I’ve been afraid of the dark . . .



So today marks Day 1 of my Co-dependent Therapy (as I’ve named it) or the 2 months without Jen.
This will be good for me. At least everyone keeps saying that. And I believe it also. And I’m actually looking forward to it. Well, most of it.

But there are going to be some huge adjustments with having Jen here to keep me in line. Let me explain a few differences between us:

Jen gets up about 2 hours earlier than I do everyday and usually gets me up to workout. Both a good thing and a not-so-lovely thing, since I love my sleep.

Jen likes to go do things and I’m a homebody. So she’s good in helping me get out of the house and actually be around people.

Jen’s a very disciplined person and I am not. She motivates and pushes me in my workouts and time with God.

Though I hate to admit it, Jen does most of the cooking b/c basically I’m lazy and don’t really enjoy cooking.

Jen keeps me accountable to keeping the house clean b/c she actually cares about how it looks and I don’t even notice when my clothes have taken over the couch.

If I let my body do what it wants, I’d go to bed at 1am and get up at 10am everyday. That doesn’t really work for normal everyday life, so Jen helps keep me on track.

Jen likes to have balanced meals with meats and veggies and carbs. I usually just pick one of those for my meal, and typically one that doesn’t have to be prepared.

The list could go on . . . but I definitely have some challenges ahead of me.
For my sanity and hopefully for your mild entertainment, I’ll be keeping of log of my Therapy process and posting it on Facebook and our Blog.

So far Jen’s been gone for 1 ½ hours and I’ve only had one mini breakdown for about 30 seconds, checked every room on every level of this 4 story building to make sure no one is waiting for me to fall asleep and then come get me, and barricaded the door to our living space with a big thick piece of wood, jammed between the door and the wall.


I think I’m doing pretty good so far!

Until the next update- keep me in your prayers!