Reflection

So God's had me on this "reflection" phase for the past month or so. I'm not sure yet what to do with it all, but just digesting it for now.

I'm thinking that I'm looking back so that He can more clearly show me what's ahead. But I have yet to see anything that's ahead.
Well, I've seen a few clips and snippets, but still trying to figure out if that's Him or Me showing them.

So I made a little calendar from the past 10 years of my life. Kind of crazy to think I'm old enough to even have a calendar like that which would consist of more than just play-dates and school time! But alas, I'm growing older like the rest of them!

So I'll share my insight with you.

In the past 10 years I have:

• Cut all my hair off (that was down to my waist my whole life)
• Worked full-time as a Licensed Massage Therapist
• Met Jennifer Blackwood and Dawn Jacobus (two people who turned out to be some of the most influential people of my life!)
• Went on my first cruise
• Completely dedicated my life to God
  
• Worked in Ministry for the first time (Jen's assistant)
• Went on my first mission trip
  
• Left the country for the first time, visiting India twice and Vietnam
• Took a vacation to Italy
• Moved (for the first time) from the house I grew up in to a different state- Dallas, TX for a job
• Got my first apartment (and first roommate)
  
• Visited Thailand and fell in love with the people and culture
• Worked in Ministry for the 2nd time at Teen Mania (this is what I call my first "Big Girl" job as it was the first time I was ever on Salary instead of hourly!)
• Went skydiving
• Got my 2nd "Big Girl" job and learned more lessons than I would have cared to (but thankful now of course!)
• Did my first Triathlon (which also means ran for the first time, trained for something for the first time, biked for serious for the first time and learned to swim- FOR THE FIRST TIME!)
• Made the decision to move to Thailand (planned for a year after the decision)
• Moved to another country
  
• Visited Malaysia, Cambodia, Singapore and India again

I'm really not sure what God has in store for my next 10 years. But I know there are some things I'm really praying about and hoping will happen.

-For the first time in my life, I'm pretty sure I'm ready for a serious relationship. Weird to even say it actually! But I just feel like that season is coming.

-For the first time since living in Thailand (even since visiting Thailand 5 years ago!) I feel like I might Not live here the rest of my life. And though I said I didn't think I'd ever move back to America, my heart is slowly starting to allow that thought back in.

-Even more weird for me than that, is the thought of moving back to SC that's been creeping in lately. Where is THAT coming from?!

-I'd like to own my own business. The freedom I have here with my schedule and my ministry and my work . . . it's something that I'm just not willing to give up. After having 8-5 jobs and working overtime and sitting in a room under florescent lights for 9 hours . . . and then having THIS. There is just no way I could go back to it. What does that look like? I have NO clue!

-I really desire to have a mentor in my life. I can see now the benefits and amazing opportunities for growth that it provides. I was never ready for it before, but I'm ready for it now.

-I'd like to figure out how to do more with my photography. It's a passion that I don't let myself take seriously enough.


So, those are the main thoughts/ideas/prayers going around in my head. I've been looking back a lot at the past, but also looking a LOT into the future.
I'm not one to really worry about the future, but it's fun for me to daydream and allow God to speak to my heart through those visions and thoughts and ideas.

What about you? What are some things you are praying about for your future? Post a comment and tell us about them! :)